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No, I didn’t lose a child. Well, sort of. My daughter (step-daughter), Samantha has gone to live with her real mom. This will be the first time in 8 years Sam has lived with her. It’s not a bad thing ~ just different for us all. We’ll miss her here at home, but she has been unhappy for a long time not living with her real mom. Yes, she and Curt call me Mommy. Yes, I have been raising them for the last 8 years, and I know it is different for kids when they still have their mom. But she has been mine for a long time so it’s a bit strange to not have her around. Now mind you, she and I would butt heads quite often. More often than either of us would have liked. I would yell at her. She would roll her eyes at me. We’d both cry and slam doors. But we’d always at some point say sorry and that we loved each other. Sometimes I don’t think she knows just how much I do love her. Sam may not have come from my body but she is in my heart.

Samantha will be starting a new school this year and hopefully finding some great new friends while keeping her old ones here at home. And yes, I say home because this will always be her home even if she doesn’t live here. I want her to be happy and to have a wonderful childhood. She is lucky to have a great family on all sides. She has me, her dad, Curt and Isabelle here. And she has her mom, 2 brothers, 2 sisters plus a few in-laws and 7 nieces and nephews there. We all get along which is quite strange for ex’s and step’s and half siblings, etc. I think we are a rare breed. We may not always see eye to eye, but who does?

We all want Samantha (and all the kids) to be happy, so I hope that she will find the peace and happiness she is searching for in this new journey at a new school and new home.

And to Samantha, if you read this, you may not be of my flesh and blood but you are of my heart!

I love you!

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